| So far 2008 is kicking ass |
[25 Feb 2008|02:02am] |
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A new year. Dustin isn't my boyfriend anymore, and I'm back with my previous boyfriend Mike. I date too many Dustin's and Mike's... I met Mike three years ago, from the internet actually. Things between us really kicked off for awhile. Now, it's just a big confusing mess. We moved to California, moved back to Nebraska and broke up (that was when I was dating Dustin for 6 months). Then I just realized, being with someone else didn't make me happier, and the one person I was happy with, was willing to take me back.
Although I have to admit, things have been really rocky between Mike and I recently, but I think we're progressing forward, and things are getting better. We're both getting jobs, we're both going to save up money, and move into a place of our own. We're finally starting our plans, which is a bit redundant, because we should have been doing that all along.
Heather is doing really well, she's very happy with her new-ish husband Jay. They got married last July, and I was her maid of honor. Mike actually went to visit with me. We had so much fun. Heather looked stunning. I actually got along with her mother for once. Little Debbie was adorable, and I can't believe she's grown so tall. Heidie was her usual aloof self.
In other news, Heather told me recently : Her and Jay are planning a visit to Omaha this summer. I'm excited, and I hope I have a two bedroom apartment - ready to entertain them. Heather told me she would pay for a couple of dinner's (including Mike and I), but I refuse!!! Every time I have visited her in South Carolina, she has been generous to pay for food, cigarettes, little trinkets, and any other activity. I refused and simply told her, "It's my turn to show you guys around! It's only fair!" If we have our apartment by then, they will have a place to stay. We'll have two cars, so I can take them around, or Mike could. Or maybe even borrow a car to visit Heather's family. Either way, transportation isn't going to be a problem.
Heather also sent me a package last week, I just got it today. She sent me : A small metal sculpture shaped like a lizard (it's adorable, I absolutely love it), a small book with blank pages, another small book (Vintage French Nude Portraits), two graphic novels and a magazine, also a cute night light (the cover is a butterfly with a couple of painted plastic wings). It's the coolest package ever! I simply love everything she sent to me. Even the ten bucks I'll probably spend at Express.
So far 2008 is kicking ass.
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[23 Apr 2007|05:15pm] |
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My laptop is working beautifully. I can't believe I went without it for so long. I'm glad it's fixed, and is running better than before. My dad fixed my car, he replaced the fuel injector. I'm so happy. What a great and beautiful day it has turned out to be. Maybe I'll go out for a bit later on this evening. I'd like to hang out with my friend Mike, he seemed bummed out the other day when he called me. Maybe I can cheer him up.
<3 <3 <3
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[21 Mar 2006|04:20am] |
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Malediction Society was Sunday. That was a ton of fun. Although barely anyone showed up because of a concert. Reguardless, it was fun.
I got new camo pants. I need to stop going to the mall. I got an H.P. Lovecraft book too.
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[25 Feb 2006|02:12am] |
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I really like to go shopping...
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| Das Bunker last night... |
[28 Jan 2006|01:52pm] |
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I'm kind of pissy at the moment. Someone stole my Skinny Puppy hoody last night while I was at a club called Das Bunker. Fucking stupid 18 year old bitches...
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| What's the word? |
[17 Dec 2005|12:27am] |
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You know, I feel like I can hardly communicate with anyone in this city anymore.
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[20 Nov 2005|06:59pm] |
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So Mishelle called me a few minutes ago. We talked for a few, she was at work.
In the short conversation, I came to the realization... California doesn't have snow... I don't know if I can part with the winter weather just yet... But I'm determined to get this job. I really want this job. I really want to move out of Nebraska too. *Sighs* I just didn't realize it would mean leaving the snow behind just yet.
I've been thinking about moving a lot recently. I'm excited, and at the same time I'm really scared. I don't know what's going through my head anymore. It would be nice if I could shake it off this pathetic anxiety I have, and just move on with my plans with ease. But unfortunately, I've never been that way.
I hate this feeling.
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| oh shit... |
[08 Nov 2005|01:07pm] |
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Mike is almost out of cigarettes! I've been smoking his cigarettes since last night.... Oooppss..
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[28 Oct 2005|10:33am] |
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| Aaawww Mom's are so awesome! |
[24 Sep 2005|12:44am] |
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Oh my god I love my mom!! Hehe.
I got off of work early, and called Mike to let him know I was going to pick him up. We bought our tickets early, and sat in my car smoking a cigarette. My mom called me on my cell phone, and asked me if I had received her message. I answered no, and she told me to call her back when I heard it. So I call my voice mail, and her message detailed a surprise was waiting for me. So I call her back and asked her about the surprise, she told me I would just have to come home and see it myself. I told her I was about to go into the theater, and I would come home after it was finished. She told me to wake her up after I saw my present.
After the movie was finished, I drove to my parents house in delight. She described the gift wouldn't last too long, but it should be fine for the next few days. I immediately thought food or flowers. To my surprise, it was the largest flower arrangement shrouded in green tissue paper. I could smell my favorite flower right when I stepped into the door of my house. Stargazer lily's are possibly the most fragrant flower I have ever smelled in my entire life. I think that is why those flowers are my favorite, they can fill an entire room with a wonderful scent. She wrote a short little note, "Megan - You are right, they smell so good. Saw them and thought of you today - love Mom" On the other side of the note, "Take and enjoy whie you're thinking about the excitement of being a flight attendent. Then - I can fly with you and dad! Always- Mom"
I am betting she dropped at least sixty dollars on this arrangement, and possibly more. There has to be at least twelve open stargazer's and at least four flowers that have not bloomed yet. They are simply beautiful.
A thought occured to me a couple of days ago. I wanted to spoil myself, and find stargazer's just to induldge myself a little. I was in Hy-Vee buying bread, and I walked past the floral department, and low and behold, I saw them. I walked up the counter hesitant, and asked, "How much for one stem of those stargazers?" and she smiled politely and told me, "They are not for sale." I had figured as much. Every time I walked into that store, and they had stargazer's, they were ordered for somebody else. Saddened I walked away. All they had was tiger lily's, and I don't mind those, but they're bright orange. I wanted plain white stargazer's, or the pretty pink ones. I walked out feeling sad, but got over it quickly. I figured the next time I saw my favorite flower, I wouldn't hesitate to get at least one stem.
And then my sweet mom bought a whole arrangement for good luck. What a sweetheart!
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| Response to Mishelles LJ |
[15 Sep 2005|04:59am] |
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Mishelle left instructions on her blog to do this. My 23rd entry was only 2 or 3 sentences long, and I didn't like what I posted. So I went to the entry after that.
24th Entry, 5th sentence : "She wasn't supposed to be here until Saturday."
Mishelle came into town early, so it was a good entry. Heh. Mishelle, come into town early again!
Oh yeah, and Mike is fighting about over Halloween! Says it's his favorite holiday. Oh yeah, and his other reason is, "I stick my penis in you, she doesn't have a penis, I win." I laughed it off and said, "That doesn't count! If Mishelle had a penis, she'd probably fuck me." Because seriously, if any chick had suddenly changed gender, uh yeah! I'd fuck chicks, because I had a penis. Duh.... anyway. It made me giggle, because he gave me a strange look after that bit.
Sims 2 has taken over my life...
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| The words evade me... |
[07 Sep 2005|10:29pm] |
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You know, I really have nothing to say.
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| Lame.... |
[08 Aug 2005|06:40pm] |
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I have to wait a week to find out if they looked at my application? That's stupid, but whatever.
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[30 Jul 2005|12:53pm] |
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Mishelle is coming Sunday! Yay!
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[08 Jul 2005|09:21am] |
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Oh where is Mishelle when I want to talk about politics? *sniffles* Someone who actually cares to explain what the hell is going on.
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| Dreams are crazy. |
[26 Jun 2005|10:48am] |
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So, I've been having the craziest dreams lately. One dream, I was trying to run away from something with some girl I didn't know. I had to jump over this little edge to get to land on the other side. The girl went ahead of me, and dropped something important in this hole. I bent over and grabbed it. While I was looking at the ground, there were these crazy weird plants/weeds. She was waiting for me on the other side. While I was looking, she started looking too. Then the thought occurred to me, "These are not weeds... They're this crazy plant that's alive.... with sharp teeth..." Once the final thought occurred to me, it moved quickly and attack the girls ankle, and screamed. I screamed and stood straight up, and looked all over the ground, once I felt the intense pain in my ankle. These insane looking plants were all over the ground. Since we were running so fast, they couldn't bite us. Then another bit my ankle. They reminded me of venus fly traps. Except they could move about a foot from their root, out of the ground. I screamed, she was screaming, and then I bolted straight up in bed.
I went to sleep again, calmly reminding myself, "It was just a weird nightmare." So, I laid back down and closed my eyes, and willingly fell back into the arms of sleep. Had another bad dream. Repeated the process of waking up and falling back asleep. It was ridiculous.
fucking weed...
I have to go to my traffic class in an hour. I fucking stopped... Stupid cop.
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| Oh yeah??? |
[12 Jun 2005|03:08pm] |
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I'm getting sick of this place, and the people, and every little fucking detail of my fucking life.
Good day.
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| Childhood memories are better when you were a child... |
[22 May 2005|03:25pm] |
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So, Chucky Cheese has turned into something quite different from what I remember when I was a child... Yesterday was my sister's step son's birthday party, he turned 7. We arrived late, because we hadn't thought it would take 45 minutes to wrap all the gifts. But it was ok, it was pretty much what I expected it to be. Will and his soccer buddies went nuts running around. For some reason, there weren't as many games as I expected. I remember when I was a child, there was a ton of games to play. Of course, places and specific rooms seem much larger when you're a child, especially when you how it used to be in the past.
Mike and I were discussing our memories of Chucky Cheese at the table. The pizza tasted better when I was little. I didn't remember alcohol being served. Mike mentioned the walls used to be black, and there were colored lights everywhere. After he mentioned it, my memory came back. I do remember the walls being black, and the colored lights everywhere. When I was a kid I thought it was fun and cool, never did it cross my mind that it was dark. Not to mention, it was called Showbiz Pizza then. Now comparing the two, that place sucked. The mechanical robot characters were a little bit frightening when I saw them now. I remembered the little skits they did, and thought they were cool to watch. When I watched them yesterday, I was more than curious what the children were thinking of these crazy things.
Will tore through the presents we got him within mere seconds, when it took us almost an hour to put it all together. Oh-well, it was to be expected. I remember thinking how I use to rip apart the wrapping paper when I was little. I wonder if my parents thought the same thing I was thinking, when I ripped apart the gifts so fast.
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| Heh, I was bored, and saw this quiz on Mish's journal. |
[21 May 2005|07:57am] |
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Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Intellectual - You consider your mind amongst your assets. Learning is not a chore but a constant search after wisdom and knowledge. You value education and rationality.Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.
Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Stylish
2. Adventurous
3. Intellectual
4. Outgoing
5. Wealthy/Ambitious
6. Liberal
7. Sensual
8. Practical
9. Funny
10. Romantic
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Practical
2. Shy
3. Stylish
4. Intellectual
5. Adventurous
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Sensual
8. Conservative
9. Funny
10. Big-Hearted
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